Self Bukkake addiction

By Mr. Freeze · Woman / Likes Men / Single

Hi, first off, I love watching your advice clips and how fair you are with what some may think are wierd fetishes.
Here is mine. I have always got off on watching girls open their mouths and stick their tongue out to take a load of cum. Once I discovered bukkake, it allowed me to watch this over and over again with one girl. I became addicted. Now I have taken it further with the bukkake and gokkun genre, where I get really turned on by all the cum. I am totally straight, but now I want to have all that cum too, but just my own, so I save it in the freezer. A few times I have saved between 15 and 25 loads that I end up thawing, watching all my favourite swallowing videos, and then drink all my cum out of a martini glass.
I get really excited while it's happening, but afterwards, I feel totally perverted and think I should never do it again. Until some time passes and I want it again.
Also, my stomach doesn't feel too great a little while after I do it. Is it bad to do this? I am having an internal battle with what to do here. And what do you think a girl would think about this if she found out or I told her? Would that be crazy?

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Billoddie

Billoddie / Woman / Likes Men / Single

Hi. I understand ur fetish. I am a straight guy, but just love the sight of cum. I love to see big loads ejaculated into girls open mouths, and sometimes wish I could be the one getting the loads. Guilt has been a big thing in the past, but i have recently been exploring the philosophy of tantra, and this has helped me gain an acceptance of mt sexuality...check out the tantra book by osho. it really is food for thought.


AskMyGF

AskMyGF / 25 / Woman / Likes Men / Single

No problem at all. I don't think you have too much to worry about. If you do, just make it a monthly splurge or something - perhaps a treat for a month of hard work. That may make it more special and slightly wean you off the addiction, if you fear it is a bad thing.


AskMyGF

AskMyGF / 25 / Woman / Likes Men / Single

Awe, thanks :) Stick around then mister...haha


Mr. Freeze

Mr / Woman / Likes Men / Single

Thanks, I feel better about it. But actually if I did it as a monthly thing, I would be greatly increasing the times I do it, since it can take a month or two to even collect enough cum, unless I do it in smaller doses. I get what you mean though. thanks again. I'm a big fan.


Weeniewimp

Weeniewimp / Woman / Likes Men / Single

I have become addicted to this but in a little different way. I initially started it all when I began calling women for phone sex involving being cuckolded and eventually was craving being humiliated sexually. Then one of these women suggested that I eat my own cum for her after ejaculation which sounded hot until I had cum, then couldn't bring myself to do it. She was disappointed in me and the next time I called she told me I would not be allowed to cum unless I ate it. She remebered what happened the las time so she I would have to shoot it directly inot my own mouth. She instructed me on how to get inot position so my little dick was pointed right at my mouth .....and I did ejaculate but miss my mouth at the last second. She again was disappointed. Then next time she made me do it on webcam and with her watchful eyes on me I finally got a load of my own semen into my mouth. She was laughing loudly the whole time and you can imagine how devastated I was wondering "how did this happen?" That was about 3 years ago and several thousand phone sex dollars ago. I have cum inot my face and mouth on webcam for nearly 30 different women ....some have seen me do it 20 0r 30 times. Each time I do it I am disgusted with myself and vow never to do it agian....but then a week or so later I find myself on my back with my feet over my head looking up at my little dick that is aobut ot spray my face and a few seconds later am gargling my own jism.....now a couple of hundred bucks poorer. How can I shake this?


Mr. Freeze

Mr / Woman / Likes Men / Single

So you think I should not worry about it and keep saving and drinking all this cum? I can't share this with anyone, so it's nice to finally discuss this.
Thanks so much for the quick reply.


AskMyGF

AskMyGF / 25 / Woman / Likes Men / Single

Haha, I get a little email about it, so I stay on top of things :)


Mr. Freeze

Mr / Woman / Likes Men / Single

wow! fast response! you're good!


Mr. Freeze

Mr / Woman / Likes Men / Single

This question is for Heaven Stubblefield


AskMyGF

AskMyGF / 25 / Woman / Likes Men / Single

That might not be first date conversation material, but in time, you should be able to gauge whether or not your girl would like it. If she finds the cum in the freezer, just say it's some type of weird gravy...haha. We women believe crazy things when we're horny :)

In terms of the stomach feeling, that's likely guilt more than anything. It could also be the equivalent of drinking a whole lot of Boost or Ensure - tons of proteins and stuff going into your body, possibly to the point of overload. You can't get sick from your own cum unless you're storing it in an open container and somehow getting it contaminated that way.

As for the fetish as a whole, it doesn't seem super crazy. My husband likes to watch bukkake, and so do a lot of our friends. It takes the pansy American version (cumshots) to a whole new level. You probably feel paranoid about it because either you don't think it's normal or you don't think it's moral. Either way, just get over your problems and realize that it's just fine. Whatever makes you happy :)


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